Act and Dream , Plan and Believe

"To accomplish great things, we must
not only act, but also dream, not
only plan, but also believe."
- Anatole France

The past cannot be changed

"The past cannot be changed.
The future is yet in your power."
- Hugh White

Spread the love....

There is more hunger for love and appreciation in this world than for bread."- Mother Teresa

Review's and Resolutions

Let's see , how have year 2008 been?? Think , its just like any other years ,

Full of Shits!
Full of Joys!
Up's! , Down's!
Laughter , Sorrow's!

Lets just put it this way , same shit different years. =D But , now! the real question is , Have "I" made a difference to anyone or anything?? hmm...that's a though one... do not know how to answer that.

Well , 2008 have been a learning year for me , as any other years(like duh!) , yea la!! One year older edi mah!!! lol.. 21 this year already . Cant believe myself either. Ok! lets get down to the reviews of the year 2008


Family
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Relationship with family was really bad till late october . But gradually improving.


Work
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Good progress till oct . Been shit ever since .But improving again


Spiritual walk
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Been really bad and have lost sight of God somehow but getting better


Love
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Time of my life =) *nuff said*

Friendship
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Im always blessed in this area , I have the most wonderful friends ever.


Overall , year of learning and getting matured i guess. Maybe it was God idea to get me back on track?? seriously i dont know... Maybe its just a part of life... =)


OK!!!! NOW , ITS TIME FOR YEAR 2009!!!

Well , This is what I have in mind for year 2009 , and this is what i would need 2 achieve by the end of 2009.


Personal
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-Love ppl who hate me .
Honestly serious and seriously honest about this. I wanna love everyone the same no matter they are friends or foes . I realized that people act the way there are for a reason , some known reason , some unknown reason. I have always been a fella who would say don't judge a person , so im gonna keep it.

-Stop smoking
No need explanation i guess , i can stop it once, I CAN DO IT AGAIN!!

-Helping people in need
Simple things, which im i capable of helping that is.

-Saving
Save money as much as possible

-Pick up guitar again
I sooooo wanna play it again!!!

-Gym-ing
Healthy lifestyle coming right up

-Photography
Modeling shots is the THEME OF THE YEAR!!

-Dance lessons
Yeapz , this time its those slow dance. No more breakdance HARI!!! You are old!!!

-Frequent update on blog (so i can share my thought with people)

*thats the main ones in my personal list , maybe ill add more when i complete a few*


Family
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Spending more time with them and cherish every momment with them . I may die tomorrow , its scary ... I wanna be with them as much as possible. and i really need to work on the relationship fracture between me and my brother. YES!! I LOVE HIM TOO!!

Work
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Giving my best to my employers , I CAN BE THE BEST IN WHAT I DO!! AND I WANNA SHOW IT TO THEM...

Spiritual walk
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I know where I stand GOD ,and I want to come back to you. More quiet time and building my relationship with God again.

Love
_____
I know what i need to do *nuff said*

Friendship
__________
Always being there for them as much as i can . As they have been there for me =)

Projects
_________
Starting , executing , Finishing something I started with some people without letting them down.


OK!! thats it!!! . Well , dont worry im just posting a brief summary on this post , but i have 7 A4 long resolution with step to keep me up. =D So well , i really know what i want and what i need to do. =) LESS TALK MORE ACTIONS!!!





Coming up next, on the next post!!!
-Car got crashed
-Clubbing reviews
-Langkawi trip end of 2008
-All the stupid things that has happened on 2008!

So , Stay Tuned People!!





Signing off ,



HariDayKumar SaYwaT?!

Tears and Comfort

Woke up in the middle of the night ,

With tears blurring my sight ,

I stayed put to think whats wrong ,


I stayed put to think what am i doing ,


I stayed put to think what am i going to do,


My mind is either empty or there is a lot of things running in it. Im just craving for a big big hug. I step up and started walking to the next room , quietly opening the door , there i saw her sleeping so peacefully after a long day of hard work. Silently i just walk to the bed and lie beside her hugged her with tears still flowing from my eyes. She woke up knowing its me , and asked me "why what happened?".

I just crashed , word just did not come out from my mouth , only tears from my eyes. After a period of time I talked and talked letting her know everything i go through, then i looked into her eyes , i saw tears coming from hers ,she is not tearing for herself , but she was tearing for me. She just grabbed me and hug me so tightly , i felt like ... i do not know how to describe that feeling , so wonderful??

Then i started believing in myself again , knowing that i know that there is someone always there for me and to hold me when im falling . Someone who i can talk to when i need to let my feelings out . Someone i look up to and someone who can remind me of im going the wrong directions.

THANK YOU MA , YOU ARE THE GREATEST GIFT TO ME!! =)

Because of you , now i have the energy to focus and to DO WHAT I NEED TO DO!

Because of you , now i have the confidence again TO REACH WHAT I WANT!

Because of you , now i know even if i fail at the end ,at least i know I WENT FOR WHAT I WANTED!


Because of you now i know even if i fail , you will set up a arranged marriage for me. lol =D haha.

YOU ARE THE GREATEST MUM ONE COULD EVER HAVE! and I mean this from the bottom of my heart.*hugz* =)









p.s - really wish ur not reading this. *shy*

Are You An Extrovert or An Introvert?

You Are 70% Extrovert, 30% Introvert

You are quite outgoing You are a social connector - you know a ton of people While you aren't a wild extrovert, you are a great talker A fantastic storyteller, you keep everyone laughing

Loved!! Blessed!!! and always Love!!

Today , came back from work and mum started asking millions of questions about my leg. Well, for the information , my leg have some ligament problem like it tore or something . So yea, and i was like , what, why so suddenly asking me so much questions??? Then she told me , she had this nightmare where someones leg was like rotten and there were like worms everywhere on the leg and she was really worried bout that dreams and wants me to get my leg checked and all.

It was so cute to see my mum reactions then . Then i thought bout it again , i just smiled to myself ,to know how much my mum cares and love me. =) Well , it was just a dream and she know it, but she just got so worried bout it thinking like it was a sign that something bad is gonna happen to me .Im really blessed with a wonderful mum and I really thank God for her. =)


Then , I today i was talking to Gillian bout her love life. Then she suddenly told me "it's good that he doesnt let me go". Lol... then i just remembered the past. Someone once told me , "Hari , if I ever freak out and want to let go , please dont let me go" =)

I WILL NOT!! I'LL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU!!!

lol... i Just feel like saying it out now. I will nvr let you go. Will never!!I know it maybe too late for me to say it now. But I know , Its not the end! and i wanna make it to actions rather than just saying it . =)

Peace Yo!

Love!

What is love??? How do you show that you love someone??...


Love is not just words, Love is action!!

Actions speaks louder than words... remember??


Sometimes , you know it all ... but it takes something simple to remind you all this...


I hope my posting about this helps some people , who needs a simple reminders... =)


Lose IT!!! And u'll regret it all your life.. so, DONT!!! do the right thing... =)


But , lose it ... it does not mean that its too late either, repent!! and you'll have always have another chance... all the best people!!... *hugz to the world* =D

Killing my LIFE?

Have not been productive at work..,

It is not good to let personal thing to get into the working life , I know it . But , its just so hard at times to just , let it all go and just concentrate. But somehow i know i can be the best in what i do. All i need now , is self motivation and perseverance to get through this .

Face it! no one can help your self except you .

A Prayer to You...

I want to get this feeling off me ,
I want to get work done ,
I do not know where to pour out my feelings,
I do not know why have i become like this ,
I do not know why am i asking you this ,
I don't even know why am i writing this ,


Im lost.... so lost... i feel like there is nobody for me....im craving for love... im craving for comfort... im craving for someone to hold me tight and tell me everything would be alright...im crying deep down inside me ...

would you please send down you peace to me? calm me... help me to get over this feeling ... I REALLY NEED YOU NOW!! HELP ME!!! GUIDE ME!! HOLD ME INTO YOUR HAND!!! I SURRENDER ALL OF ME INTO YOU...YOU ARE ALL I HAVE NOW...

Number 6

i'm number 6. Saw this post in Christina's blog.

Find the birthday date of yours.
1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month you are number 1.
2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month then you are number 2.
3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month then you are number 3.
4th, 13th, 22nd, 31st of any month then you are Number 4.
5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then you are number 5.
6th, 15th, 24th of any month then you are number 6.
7th, 16th, 25th of any month then you are number 7.
8th, 17th, 26th of any month then you are number 8.
9th, 18th, 27th of any month then you are number 9.
Here's the answer of your birthday date.

Number 1
You are smart, a straight talker, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest, jealous on a competitive basis, kind hearted, temperamental, friendly, and popular(high profile). You always want to be on the top and most likely to be independent. You are most likely to fall in love at a young age, but will marry once you mature! You are likely to have problems with people who have opposite views and you are most likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis. You are a spender, but you will have a good profession in the future. If you are guy you will be very popular. You can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of the parliament because you are positive and talented in numerous areas. But in your life you will always have some people who will work hard to bring you & your name down. Because of your intelligence, some might hate you. You are a pioneer, independent & original your best match is 4, 6, 8 while a good match would be with 3,5,7

Number 2
No matter what, every one will love you because you are ruled by the Moon. You day dream a lot, you have a very low-self esteem, you need to have a back up for every move in your life, you are very unpredictable. You tend to change according to time and circumstances, selfish, have a very strong sense of musical and artistic talent and powerful verbal communication. You can be sweet as an angel and can be ruthless when double-crossed. Some might say you have a sixth sense. You will become a poet, writer, an artist or a businessperson. You are not strong in love, so your relationship will be in disarray until you settle down. If you are a girl, you will be responsible for your family. If you are a man, you tend to get involve in fights & arguments in the family. You will sacrifice your life for your family. You are gentle, intuitive with a broad vision. You make a well-balanced person. Your best match is 2, 7,5, and 9 no other people can put up with you!!!

Number 3
You are hardhearted and selfish most of the time. You always tend to have lots of problems within your family in the early stages but you will be able to cope with everything. You seem to have your way in everything. And from birth you would always have to work hard to achieve anything you want. You always make a point to set examples on others, especially the younger ones. Generally you are not a cool person. It's not easy dealing with you. A tough player you are! But once you are comfortable with someone, it will be a lasting friendship. You always earn respect from others. Your Ilk seems to have lots of worries and problems but they won't be for long. You will have brilliant kids! You love money a bit too much so temptation will push you to try endlessly. You will look after your family and help friends, so you will spend a life time just being generous and kind (except for men born on the 21st). You love your freedom, creative and ambitious, a person who brings beauty, hope & joy to this world!!! Your best match 6 and 9. Good match 1, 3, and 5

Number 4
You are very stubborn, very hard working but unlucky in important matters in life, very cool and helpful. You might repel people away from you, you may cause nuisance to others if you area man, as you gifted are with understanding other people's problems. If you are a girl, you excel in your studies and arts. If you are a guy you spend most of your time with girl friends and you tend to have too much fun with your mates & girls. Your friends will spend your time & money and get on with their life and you will be left empty handed. So be careful! You love to spend. Your positive side is that you are always around to help family and friends. You always fall in love with those younger than you. You often live with disappointments but you will take good care of your family. You need to be careful of people who will take advantage of your kind heart. And beware of your relationships too. You are radical, patient, persistent, and a hit old-fashioned; you live with foundation & order. Your best match 1, 8. Good match 5, 6, and 7

Number 5
You are very popular and you can get things done only by talking. Even to your enemies! You are business-minded and like to do things spontaneously. You will be famous if you get involved in any business. Your friends and families will always ask for your help, and you are the one actually with the money to help your friends. You will have more than one relationship, but when you settle down you tend to be selfish. You tend to go for other relationships - even if you are married at times because of your popularity. You tend to get along easily with anyone because the numbers is a middle number. You love freedom and changes. You learn your life through your personal experiences. Your best match 1, 2, Good match 6, 8.

Number 6
Ooopppss... You were born to enjoy! You don't care about others. I mean you always wanted to have a lifetime of enjoyment. You will excel in either education or business management! You are talented, kind (but with only people who you think are nice), and popular. All good things come easily to you. Your mind and body is just made perfect for love. You are loveable by any number. But if you are a number 6 men, you will be involved in more than a few relationships until you get married. If you are a girl, most of you will get married/engaged early. You are a caring person towards your family and friends. You are a person of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgment, and after all you can heal this world's wounds to make peace for everyone because you have the great power and caring talent to take the world of love one step further.. Your best match 7, 6, and 9. Good match 4, 5

Number 7
You are realistic, confident, happy, and talented in education, music, art, singing, and most importantly in acting. You also have a bad temper! You value your family status a lot; you will be in the top rank when you reach a certain age. If you are a guy you are popular with girls. Most of the number 7s faces lots of problems with their married life. Only a few are happy. You have everything in your life but with worries throughout your lifetime. You need to get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don't, then you might end-up being single. You are born to contribute to everyone's joy. Your best match is 2. Good matches are 1, 4

Number 8
You have a very strong personality and people will find it hard to understand you. You are more likely to suffer in your younger years. You might be also the one responsible to look out for your family. You often suffer all the way through life. You will learn life in a very practical way. You are the one who will fight for justice and may even die in the war too. You are normally very reserved with a handful of friends and most of the time, live life alone and always prepared to help others. However, once you settle down, (which is often late), then your had lucks will disappear. You will face unexpected problems such as encountering poisonous animals, and accidents. You are highly- disciplined, persistence, and courageous, and it is your strength that will take you to success. You are a great part of a family team. You are a fighter! Your Best match 1, 4 and 8. Good match 5

Number 9
You guys are the most incompatible people in the world. You are so strong, physically and mentally. You often have big-aims. You will work hard and will think it's still hard to get there, even if you already have gotten there! Normally you suffer in the early age from family problems and generally you will have to fight in life. You are respected by others. You were however very naughty in your childhood, and often got beaten up by your parents and had been involved in fights and you seemed to have suffered lots of injuries. But when you grow older you become calm and will fall into the quiet and dignified macho type. Love is not an easy matter for you. You are however good in engineering or banking jobs because people always trust you. Your family life is very good, but you will always worry over your children. Your finer qualities are that you are humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate. You are born to achieve targets and serve every one equally without any prejudice. You are a role model for everyone. Your best match 3, 5, 6, and 9. Good match 2.

11th...

Today , is actually one of the most meaningful day of my life ,
Today , here i am at office to keep myself busy and not think a lot ,
Today , i miss her alot....

The past , almost a month have been a hell for me , There is so much thing i have to go through. Then i realized how dependent I have become . As days past by , im beginning to realize where it all went wrong .

Now , the direction is so clear , i know what i need to do . I need to put myself together and build myself up for the future. And i know , then , i can go after her again with no worries , ill get her back!!

Even if things does not workout , I know at the end , i had the satisfaction of giving it my best shot. That's how much she means to me.

What Harikumar Means

What Harikumar Means

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic “Type A” personality. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

Heart and the brian..

God gave us a heart ,

and in heart there is lust and love ,

God gave us a brain to control the lust,

but don't let the brain blind your heart...

What is it that we really want?

Its 9.3o pm now , Just got back from a chilling session with 2 of my work Colleague in gypsy bar in KL . It was a great time out , something that i really need i guess .. We were talking about a lot of stuff, then we came to one part of the topic where one of my Colleague mentioned this ,

" Plan today like there is no tomorrow "

Somehow that really hit me . In a sense , i guess that's what i really need now . Plan my days carefully and meaningfully for a better future and to keep me busy and occupied.


For the past few day , I have been feeling really lost in my life , i felt like that everyone around me is moving on to do something that they really like and enjoy in life . I just felt so left out in a sense , i was not so sure am i really doing now , i know i like a lot of stuff , such as photography , dancing , musics ,cooking , and so on . But is it what i really want to do in my life?

Everyone have their own dreams on what they like and what they want to do . But most of this dreams are stumbled by a lot of factors


1) Restrictions (for e.g parents planing out our life, or disagreeing on thing we like because does not have a good future )
2) Financial factor
3)The country we are in (seriously there are not a lot of opportunity here comparatively to other country . ps .not really complaining but that the fact , but yea, we are more blessed than most of the other country's around us)
4)and the list can go on non stop (so im going to stop here)


Like for me , I always wanted to do sound engineering but , its defiantly not agreed by every one. Or lets just say my mum would not agree with it . I always had dreams like , wanting to travel along the world and taking photographs , working as a bartender and so on .

Well , what really hit me was , how would you know for real on what you really like ? I mean , seriously the cruel fact now in malaysia is most of the fresh grad on the field now , actually does not like what they are doing now . Then , i realised that sometimes that what you have to do is not wat you always need to love . You can somehow , be successful in what you are doing now then pursue your dreams later . Well , its never to late for anything .


Now , I really know what i really want in my life and i know what ill need to do to get it , and im pretty sure i will get it as long as i work for it , even if i dont get it . At least i have the satisfaction of giving it my best shot and i know i will never regret it .



On the second thought , I've been seeing alot of messages like this lately .


This is because of the recent arrest of Raja petra and Teresa Kok . Further new below..

PETALING JAYA: Malaysia Today news portal editor Raja Petra Kamarudin, Seputeh MP Teresa Kok and Sin Chew Daily reporter Tan Hoon Cheng were arrested under the Internal Security Act (ISA) here and in Penang.

The first person to be picked up was Raja Petra, 58, from his house in Sungai Buloh near here, followed by Tan, 32, who was arrested from her house in Bukit Mertajam, Penang. Teresa, 43, was detained at 11.20pm as she was on her way home in a car.

Detained: (From left) Raja Petra, Tan and Kok were picked up under Section 73(1) of the ISA.

All of them were arrested under Section 73(1) of the ISA for allegedly being a threat to security, peace and public order.

A team of police officers from Bukit Aman arrived at Raja Petra’s house at 1.10pm and led him away 40 minutes later.

The team also took some 15 VCDs on ceramah held by Opposition Leader Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim as well as 16 books.

Last week, the Department of Islamic Development (Jakim) and several Muslim bodies lodged a police report against Raja Petra, who is already facing criminal defamation charges for allegedly insulting the Malays, Muslims and Islam.

In a statement, Deputy Inspector General of Police Tan Sri Ismail Omar said Raja Petra was arrested based on surveillance that showed that he was involved in activities that could cause unrest among the multi-racial and multi-religious society of the country.

Tan, who was picked up at 8.40pm, was taken from her house in Taman Seri Rambai in Bukit Mertajam to the state police headquarters on the island.

Tan, 32, reported former Bukit Bendera Umno division chief Datuk Ahmad Ismail’s racist remarks while campaigning for the Permatang Pauh by-election.

Lee Kelvin from Guang Ming and Tan Ming Xao from Nanyang Siang Pau, who had vouched for the accuracy of Tan’s report had gone into hiding.

Kok, 43, who is also state assemblyman for Kinrara and the senior Selangor state executive councillor, was picked up over an alleged involvement with a resident’s petition over a mosque.

Acting Inspector-General of Police Tan Sri Ismail Omar confirmed the arrests of Tan and Kok.

Under the Section, police are empowered to detain the trio for a period of 60 days after which the Home Minister can decide on further detention.

Home Minister Datuk Seri Syed Hamid Albar admitted that the decision to detain people and issue show cause letters would be unpopular and would be criticised but it had to be done.

“While we may want to be popular, freedom without responsibilities has ramifications.

“We have to take action to protect the wishes of the majority,” he said.

Syed Hamid also said Raja Petra had been warned on many occasions in the last two years.

“Now, with so much public uneasiness, we do not want anything that can threaten peace in the country.

“The police looked at all aspects and, under present circumstances, the actions were necessary,” he added.

Well i was watching the video below , and this is wat I agree on , I really agree with Ambiga Sreenevasan the the President of the bar council of Malaysia .

A year have almost passed

Its been almost a year now ,


Alot of things have happened in my life , it have been like a 180 turning for me , alot of things have been ventured , experienced , learned and observed . There is so much in life and many more to come and is coming . I have been living in my lilttle own world and have been too comfortable with it all this while . The past almost a year have been a real eye opener for me .


Let me firstly start with my job ,

Somewhere last year after my STPM i started working , as i was pretty confused on what to do with my life , as if in my studies . It was pretty complicated for me in a sense to decide what i would want to do for further studies . Because i have my own plans for life and i know what i want. I dont really need a degree to pursue my dreams , but i would definitely need to get a degree for a few reason

1) Would want to fulfill my mum's wish
2) Maybe i just want is as a back up as anything can go wrong .
3) Just so that i wont feel to be left out in this society

So , after thinking for some period of time i decided to work first to venture for experience . Owhh yea , for your information i never had a chance to do part -time job before . But , i do have my own personal experience on some freelance project in IT related field . So this was like my first time going for a official work and working under people.

Somehow i got this job as an IT executive in one website designing company called Jayatronics biz . Then i moved on for a better offer to work for L'oreal Malaysia as a MIS technical support where i meet two great people who took care of me and advised me , motivated me and always
supported me . I would like to mentoin their name here but dont have any picture to post . One was my MIS manager called Mr. Vivan Ponnudorai and the other was my senior alanyst Mr.Ting .I learned alot here and i was given alot of opportunity to learn a lot of stuff . Thanks to them i learned a lot in IT line. It was really fun working for L'Oreal .

Then i moved to Datacom SEA , Now! i would say this is the highlight of my working life . Millions things learned and it have changed me a lot personally ,as a person . Now, Datacom have many department in it . I was working under the Dlink account as a technical support and we support ANZ cust. We supported modems , routers , managed, unmanaged switches , VPN routers ,print servers and alot more , this is where i found my love for networking ,learned alot technically. The best part if this work is the people i got to meet , it was a wonderful team.. Full of great and fun people , i had a very good manager and mentors to guide me .

Apart of the team

My all time fav makcik.. huahua XD

as you all can guess , she does not like me calling her makcik.. lol

Lawrence's farewell in tony roma's



Dlink farewell Dinner and Drinking session Port Dickson Team retreat

Unfortunately , every good thing have to come to an end right?? lol . Dlink was closed down and all of us left for other things . But , im really thankful that i was a part of this team and really thankful i meet this great people . = ) You will always be remembered guys . WE GO YUMCHA SOON!!! aite??? lol

Life moved on , and i was transfered to HP support after that. But soon ill be leaving HP for a better offer internally in Datacom. I'll always Reminisce the fond memories. Thank you people.Ill miss ya'll always.



Moving ON!!!!



Lets move on to RELATIONSHIP!!!


Its was 11th of oct last year , i coupled up with this girl ....





The sweetest thing ever in my life , she is my friend , my lover , my strength and my all . She have been there for my all the time when im down , she listens to me whine , she listens to me when i complain , when i make lame jokes thats not funny ,when i just talk rubish , she always there for me . She is the most special person for me .She's my baby!!

Well , so many things we have been through together and explored together. She is so special to me and i really want to be there for her all the time and to take care of her . Many times have failed her badly but still she forgive me , and she accepts me for who i am . This have made me want to be a better man for her , i really want to give her the best and nothing but the best . She is really special and precious to me .


I'll admit it , I'm not really a good boyfriend material , but for her , I really want to be one =) Thats , How much she means to me . Hope one day i can really grow up and be the right person for her . Even if anything goes wrong , i would still want to be her good friend and be there for her all the time . She make me feel special , she makes be feel , like im someone to to this world .(fyi i always felt like im worthess in the eyes of the world) I'm really lucky to have met her in my life . The greatest thing ever . =] Thank you gf .

Think , its our first pic together and NO!! im not horny!

Her valentine's gift for me =( but till today havent , got her anything . I know , ISUCK!

I jsut took out my tshirt to squash out the water, thats all !=s

Prawns making love under the blanket (creation - the great hk and syt)

On july the 3rd was a sad day for me , thats the day she left for australia to further her studies . yes! she is in autralia now. Now, as she is so far away from me , im starting to appreciate her more, i wished i have never slept on her while talking on the phone , never make her wait for me on hour just to see me while she was here with me back in malaysia. Well , u know ? its really true, when people say "you'll never appreciate something until you really lose it " , its so true in my case , i so wish i had always made her happy never let her down . I really miss her . Somedays , when i wake up early in the morning , i feel like im so lonely and have no one for me . I mean i have alot of friends and all , but you know , its just a different feeling . Miss her to bits.

Miss her smile

Miss her hugs

Miss her kiss

Miss her scolding me

Miss her manjaing me

Miss her making me smile even when im really sad

I JUST MISS HER SOOO MUCH!!!

Owhh well , life goes on , ill really work hard in her absents and will study hard , and one day if everything goes well , ill be back with her soon . Hope time just pass fast enough and not so slowly . LOL .

Some of the pictures taken right before she left...

Tell me , how can this NOT make u smile?? =D

Then Comes My Australia Trip...

As i we have planed together , i would be going Australia every 6 months once to visit her . My first trip was on the 25th of july till the 5th of aug. Well , u see , it was her birthday on the 27th , but the stupid me never got her anything nice or made her something . Im So so so sooo ... stupid... i know .... aiks... seriously... she is going through alot because of me . I so wanna make it up to her ... i totally regret like mistreating her . One thing i know , i will never be like this ever again . Now i know , how much i miss her and like would really wanna make up to her since im like away from her . Im sorry dear *hugz* i really miss yah alot !! *hugz* Ill try my level best to never mistreat you ever again... xoxo . Ill really take care of you and manja you to the max.

Owhh yea, thank you for being there for me all this while , You are the only person i really opened up to ever , you have teached me how to trust . You know i dont trust in bestfriend , but if i ever have a bestfriend , it would have been you , and you complete me . =) no matter wat happens between us , i always want to be there for you , and i promise that ill be there for you. *hugz* You make me matured to ... lol! miss u lots !!!

Great photography by syt =D really like this the ice cream all for myself now .. lol

1st ice cream down =(
she never gimme ice cream =( lol..actually think i ate more than her ..hehe

P.s . this is dedicated for you dear . Ur the BEST!! *hugz* even tho we are far apart u'll always be in my heart . And sry for all the trouble i had put you through ... i mean all this from the bottom of my heart . =) miss u! Ill promise to take care of u and always be there for you . No matter wat happens . KZ? xoxo

Premier League Story!

Well i was reading some articles about Premier League, and i saw this... well, i think its preety true, Except the part bout the Chelsea coz alot has happen in Chelsea i think... so yea! Read it !Then tell me wat you think?! But seriously, Its really too early to be making prediction about this matter . Seriously, anything can happen.. But i really WIsh that LIVERPOOL will pull it off this year!!

Liverpool: You have to say that Rafa Benitez's revolution at Liverpool has far succeeded expectations. I never believed that they would reach two Champions League Finals and win one of those. And on the evidence of the season so far I would not write them off for another crack at it.

Squad - Liverpool have by far the better squad in terms of numbers. They have at least two players per position at their disposal and all of those well capable of doing a good job. Bench players like of Yossi Benayoun and Peter Crouch would walk into most Premiership teams. Due to Rafa's questionable rotation policy, they can play every player almost 100 per-cent fit week-in week-out. That didn’t work to great effect last season as Rafa did not understand that every player (for example Steven Gerrard) should not be included.

Ability - You may be surprised but I don’t believe Liverpool's players are as gifted as Arsenal's or Manchester United's. There are obvious exceptions to the rule which are Ryan Babel, Fernando Torres, Gerrard, Xavi Alonso and Jermaine Pennant. However most of the other players are great workers and fit well into the Liverpool system. I just wouldn’t class them as top-quality players. Take nothing away from the results they have so far. They may just become unstuck against the higher quality opposition.

Guts - Led by ferocious captain Gerrard and the fiery athlete that is Momo Sissoko, Liverpool definitely have guts and attitude in abundance. I firmly believe that when those winter nights come around Liverpool will show their mettle and carry on to lift the title.

Arsenal: The genius Arsene Wenger has produced another fabulous squad.

Squad - Not the best, possibly the worst of the four. But there are a lot of young players who, if they can stay fit, could play more than their fair share of games. There is also a lot of versatility in this squad making up for the absence of numbers, for example Alexandre Hleb, who is able to play in a variety of roles.

Ability - Best of the four, with ease. You could argue Manchester United but I will talk about them later. The likes of Cesc Fabregas, Robin van Persie, Gael Clichy and Tomas Rosicky enthrall the Emirates crowd and even the most biased Spurs fan would take off his or her white-tinted glasses and admit that Arsenal are the most exciting team to watch in the Premier League.

Guts - Often, in the past, Arsenal's downfall. That’s now in the past. Not apparent once this season (even against the Blackburn bullies). Not the most physically strong but they have aggression in abundance. Chelsea: Who would think that Jose Mourinho would use one of those plastic leaf brushes to comb his hair?

Squad - Very strong in some areas, weak in others. There is an abundance of central midfielders (Michael Ballack cannot get into the team). With Michael Essien and Frank Lampard they will always have a strong spine to work with. On the other hand are there enough wingers in Florent Malouda, Shaun Wright-Phillips and Joe Cole to mount a title challenge? Only injuries to key players can hold them back.

Ability - Technical ability is lacking, but it's their ruthless efficiency that gets the job done and their most gifted player, Joe Cole, doesn’t even get a chance in the team.

Guts - Michael Essien, John Terry, Didier Drogba and Frank Lampard - enough said.

Manchester United: Who would have thought that Sir Alex Ferguson's title-winning team would slum to average Joe performances? They need to up their game and soon.

Squad - Pretty good. An abundance of attacking talent, good defenders and midfileders. If the season was won on paper and based around a squad, United would win the title.

Ability - Second only to Arsenal's young guns. Wayne Rooney and Cristiano Ronaldo are genuine world-class players capable of winning matches. Nani and Anderson have shown glimpses of quality along with most of the United players. It just isn’t working at the moment. The longer they go without picking up, the harder it will be to catch up.

Guts - They seem to have lost that which made them champions last season, the steel (which Owen Hargreaves was supposed to bring) that made them so hard to beat. I also feel that the way teams set up against United has also limited their ability to show fighting spirit as they have to break teams down with approach play rather than counter-attacking pace. The jury is out.

So it's Liverpool to win the title, purely based around the squad. They will be able to put out a competitive first 11 with many injuries and suspensions, something that Arsenal, Manchester United and Chelsea cannot. Arsenal will come second, United third and Chelsea fourth.